I am really down these days… There is this cloud of sadness always over me. So many doubts. Career. Family. And one of the reason is that I see people around me living the life that I wanted and longed for. It is kind of disturbing me a lot lately. It’s like how come the things that I want are given to someone else. Am I a bad person? No I am not jealous. Its just that the things that I have wanted and wished for earnestly and sincerely for years are being given to someone else. And I remain empty… Can’t god see how hard I am toiling to get what I want? If he is then why is he ignoring me? He is giving things to other people easily who have not even toiled like I did. Then why me?